bundusath

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 09:17:24 GMT

I'm watching Wargames. It's a film with Matthew Broderick in it when he was like 16. So like 20 years ago. He's supposed to be a hacker, but hacking wasn't hard back then when computers took up a whole fucking room.

The whole movie is about Matthew's character cracking NORAD's system and causing a nuclear apocalypse or something. I don't know, I'm not really watching it.

I don't really know what's going on.
At all.

I should go out and get a job tomorrow. More than likely I won't.

My whole life lately has revolved around CS and talking to someone online. I won't mention any names, but I have a crush on her. I typed crash first. Maybe that's a bad sign. Good thing i don't believe in that kind of shit.

I'm not sure why i like this someone, we are polar opposites on some things. I don't know, I'm probably overasserting myself like usual. At least I know this girl is real.

She mentioned going to school with her, cuz we're interested in the same careers. I think she was joking. I'm seriously contemplating going. I need to get out of here. Being with her would be nice. But again, I'm probably just overrasserting myself, and this will all be fruitless. My luck the past year in this sort of thing has been pretty bad. My luck is bound to change. Then again, it's bound to stay the same.

I shouldn't be drinking Mt. Dew at 4am. I need to sleep, not ramble on about my hopeless love life.

Haha love.

I used to like that word. Know what it meant. Believed in it. I'm not sure now.

My plan for now is: sleep, go to Detroit Thursday for fun show, get a job, try to spend time with aforementioned girl. Wish me luck.

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 17:32:34 GMT

So yeah, haven't updated in a while.

In other news, I didn't go to the hearing test. I know I'm deaf.

I didn't sleep at all tonite. I do that sometimes, it helps me sleep the next night. I don't know why I write these stupid things, noone reads them. Oh well, it's the thought that counts.

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 10:16:18 GMT

I have a hearing test tomorrow.

What?

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 08:32:05 GMT

I've been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding. The cretins cloning and feeding, and I don't even own a TV.

Take me to the hospital on nerves and then they had to commit me. You told them all i was crazy. They cut off my legs now I'm an amputee goddamn you.

I'm not sick but I'm not well, and I'm so hot, cuz I'm in hell.
I'm not sick but I'm not well, and it's a sin, to live so well.

1234

Out...

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 05:17:10 GMT

I'm aggressive.

I'm sorry to everyone who has been offended by this. I love you. For some reason I take out my problems on people close to me. I'm sure I'm not the only one.

I wish things were different. I wish I could change.

Fuck the Nazi's

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 01:32:39 GMT

I'm loving it.

Nazi punks, fuck off!

Only in Toledo would Nazi's actually protest without getting killed. 90% of the people here are fucking redneck ignorant assholes, I hate Ohio.

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 08:57:40 GMT

So apparently I'm kicked out again. Monday after work I didn't feel like going to this stupid church class that I've been going to with my mom, and I didn't. Apparently if I don't go, then I get kicked out. Isn't that grand? I agreed to go, but I only enjoyed the first nite, after that it got lame. I've gone like 4 times, and I don't like it, but my mom says I'm being closed-minded about it. Fuck you you stupid cunt, you're the closed-minded one.

I haven't taken my meds in like a month. Not a good idea.

I slept through yesterday. It doesn't even exist.

Fuck my parents.

Fuck everything.

Unless you give my pot, then you'll be okay. I can't afford to buy it on my own, given that I work like 6 hours a week. I'm supposed to be part-time i.e. 20 hours a week. Some dumb fuck needs to go back college.

I hate people. Especially the fucking retarded ignorant ones that are so numerous around here.

Bring on the Armageddon, I could use a change of pace.

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 08:04:02 GMT

So far so good.

I need money. Tell me how to get some.

I need to make music too.

You can bid all day but I'm not for sale.

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 04:42:53 GMT

I'm putting this in my journal as per Emily's orders.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/sinceritymasque/75209.html?thread=79049#t79049